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ghstmskAt the end of April's entry I said I was hoping May would be better. Well it definitely was not. The first couple days of May were really good my friend's Donnie and Ian stopped by to visit and it was some of the best couple days of my life, Aster was there too for hanging out of course. We chilled at my house, we went out for breakfast, we bought groceries to make burgers and smores, we tried to make burgers over the firepit which didnt work and tinfoil melted into them so we made them on the stove instead, we made the smores, we watched movies. Unfortunately the day that Donnie and Ian left to continue their trip I ended up having another awful bout of stomach pain so I wasn't able to give them a better send-off. Having my friends over was awesome but has now left me with a new feeling of sadness i never had before. I miss my friends, sure I can talk to them over discord and frequently do, but... I miss them. I can't wait to move out of this house and live with them.
Speaking of stomach pain though, after that bout I pretty much started feeling a minor amount of stomach pain all day daily, I ended up going to the doctor about it and then got some blood tests and an x ray done. Then the next day I was having another bout of it, this time not quite the writhing but much more sharp, and I was just gonna sit it out but then I felt the sharp pain in my chest and it kinda scared me and my friends begged me to go to the ER so I did. They did some tests on me and looked at me with the ultrasound and turns out I had gallstones and they had to remove my gallbladder. I stayed in the hospital for 3 days and then went home to recover from surgery, recovery sucks but the worst part about all of this is... the cost... I've been hit with a 23k hospital bill now and that's with a self-pay discount they gave me. I'm unemployed and uninsured and have $1,200 to my name from my last job, so I gotta call the billing department and ask about financial assistance and set up a payment plan, but yeah I guess I better try to get those commissions set up fast cause lord knows getting a job is a struggle in this dinky fucking town. Especially when I can't drive.
I guess I'll be stuck with that for a while, losing what little money I had and paying it off for a while, I was hoping to move out by sometime next year but with this I'm not sure that's gonna happen... ugh... hopefully with financial assistance it'll be less but if I'm stuck with the 23k even if i pay like a 1k a month (not gonna happen) that's still two years of debt I have to pay.. ugh...
Well onto less serious things, other things that happened this month is my friends and I started meeting back up for the thing we're working on and we're making progress, we have some mock-ups done and now that I'm more recovered I can help with coding and stuff. I also managed to buy a new chair before all this because my current one is on the way out, the metal plate on the bottom straight up broke in pieces, I haven't put the new chair together though cause it arrived while I was recovering but I'm starting to get to the state I can lean over without too much pain. Despite the hospital bill I think I'm gonna buy some black fabric dye, shouldn't be too pricey and I'll get to make some clothes I already have nicer to wear which will make me a bit happier and i think I need something to make me a bit happier right now.
What a fucking month though, at least it's June, halfway through the year and I've not done anything. God my birthday isn't too far off ugh. Oh well, can only keep trying and hoping for the better.
Speaking of stomach pain though, after that bout I pretty much started feeling a minor amount of stomach pain all day daily, I ended up going to the doctor about it and then got some blood tests and an x ray done. Then the next day I was having another bout of it, this time not quite the writhing but much more sharp, and I was just gonna sit it out but then I felt the sharp pain in my chest and it kinda scared me and my friends begged me to go to the ER so I did. They did some tests on me and looked at me with the ultrasound and turns out I had gallstones and they had to remove my gallbladder. I stayed in the hospital for 3 days and then went home to recover from surgery, recovery sucks but the worst part about all of this is... the cost... I've been hit with a 23k hospital bill now and that's with a self-pay discount they gave me. I'm unemployed and uninsured and have $1,200 to my name from my last job, so I gotta call the billing department and ask about financial assistance and set up a payment plan, but yeah I guess I better try to get those commissions set up fast cause lord knows getting a job is a struggle in this dinky fucking town. Especially when I can't drive.
I guess I'll be stuck with that for a while, losing what little money I had and paying it off for a while, I was hoping to move out by sometime next year but with this I'm not sure that's gonna happen... ugh... hopefully with financial assistance it'll be less but if I'm stuck with the 23k even if i pay like a 1k a month (not gonna happen) that's still two years of debt I have to pay.. ugh...
Well onto less serious things, other things that happened this month is my friends and I started meeting back up for the thing we're working on and we're making progress, we have some mock-ups done and now that I'm more recovered I can help with coding and stuff. I also managed to buy a new chair before all this because my current one is on the way out, the metal plate on the bottom straight up broke in pieces, I haven't put the new chair together though cause it arrived while I was recovering but I'm starting to get to the state I can lean over without too much pain. Despite the hospital bill I think I'm gonna buy some black fabric dye, shouldn't be too pricey and I'll get to make some clothes I already have nicer to wear which will make me a bit happier and i think I need something to make me a bit happier right now.
What a fucking month though, at least it's June, halfway through the year and I've not done anything. God my birthday isn't too far off ugh. Oh well, can only keep trying and hoping for the better.
